And I am a writer, writer of fictions.

I just realized a little while ago that I spend every waking moment of my life wishing I were something that I'm not.  It's sort of depressing.

/melancholy

ketita

Comments are much loved and much appreciated.  Expect more soon.

Title: Dawn, Part 1 of 3
Pairings/Characters: Edward, Roy
Rating: M/R
Genre: Drama, Angst
Spoilers: None - Alternate ending, TWT?
Word Count: +/- 7700
Warnings: Language, violence, gore.
Summary:  Ed and Roy are stuck in a war zone. Gratuitous hurt!Roy for the sake of hurt!Roy ensues.
Notes: Once upon a time, I started this fic forsevlow.  It was over a year ago that I started this, actually.  I was all inspired, and then life got in the way, and then it sat in a sorry heap on my hard drive until I posted it on ff.net in July 2008, desperately seeking some inspiration.  I didn't think it was good enough for LJ at the time.  That worked a bit, and I started a chapter two around August 2008.  Then life got in the way.  I started college and it kicked me hard right in the ass.  Now I am done with freshman year and I am trying desperately to find my writing groove again.  Chapter 2 of Dawn is 90% done, so I figure I should post the first bit over here on LJ before I finish up the second bit and post it.  Anyway -- I will finish this story if it kills me!  (And it probably will.)

Enjoy!

Comments and criticism appreciated.  Look forward to chapter two soon. <3

Here's a quick recap for my own benefit though.

Things I did this year:

• gained a billion pounds eating shitty commons cake
• had self-esteem issues due to the billion pounds I gained from eating shitty commons cake
• made lots of new friends
• had to say goodbye to half of those friends for good, given that like 50% of the freshman class is transferring >_>
• had several mental breakdowns
• saw THREE therapists (for THREE different issues)
• realized that I have no idea who the hell I am
• got started figuring out who the hell I am (long way to go)
• had some really amazing, totally unplanned excursions (I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE SPONTANEOUS, COLLEGE HAS MADE ME SLIGHTLY SPONTANEOUS OMG!)
• became slightly more street-smart (slightly, slightly)
• gained a better knowledge of the world outside small-town Idaho (it is a scary place T__T)
• read more ancient Greek and Roman texts than I EVER wanted to
• realized how much I fucking hate Chemistry (also realized I'm not very good at it XD)
• set a new record for amount of time gone without sleep (seriously like omg)
• had oodles of fun T__T
• had oodles of not fun T__T
• did a shit ton of work
• did my own laundry! XD
• SURVIVED HOORAY

In conclusion, it's weird to leave.  It will be weird to come back.  I'm looking forward to my schedule next year and I'm looking forward to seeing all my friends again already.  Seriously, my schedule next year looks awesome:
 

Updating for the sake of updating.

Here is what I hate today:

• Hum Conference
• German infinitives homework
• My inability to to function
• Being alone, given that that instigates thinking about stuff
• Fanfiction that will not be finished
• Hum Conference
• The soda that I had at lunch
• The mildew-y smell in my room that comes from drying clothes in my closet
• The fact that I do not have enough hangers to hang all my wet clothes, so they are sprawled throughout my room smelling of mildew as well
• Talking to people
• Facebook

• German chocolate cake
• FMA2 in 12 days =D
• The graphic novel that we're reading in German class is actually pretty cool
• ...potatoes?

I cannot even BEGIN to express how tired I am of reading posts in which people BITCH AND BITCH AND BITCH about the upcoming Fullmetal Alchemist series.  Seriously?  Shut the fuck up. 
 

Thanks. :D <3

Today my mom told me that it is impossible to make up for lost sleep.  I'm not sure what she means by this, but I figure if she's right I should have been dead a couple years back.

Also, I have written like three whole pages of stuff, and I go back to school in two weeks.  T__T MUST WORK HARDER. 

Nothing much else to report except everyone's going back to school and soon I will be bored.  Hopefully, this boredom will induce productivity.

OH BUT I found a website where you can upload music and make free ringtones. XD I was so fucking excited that I made like 30 within the first day, and I now have enough to like assign a song to each person on my contact list.  I'm going to have this bitchin'est ringtones in town.  However, if anyone has suggestions for a supershort clip of something awesome that would make a good text message alert, I'm still grasping for that. 

/pathetic